Blah Blah...

This quote is such blatant truth. ' The tragedy of life is not death, but what we let die inside us while we live'. Read it on the front page of Robin Sharma's ' Who will cry when you die'. Hit me hard.

Why do most of us say something that we just don't mean to say?? I wanted to shout at someone but instead I said 'It's Ok'. What the hell.

I am proud to have known a friend whom I call Ani. She has tried her best to keep in contact with me and many others after school days. She has written her CA papers and I pray she clears them.

This birthday I realized I love myself more than I did last year.

On my friends birthday I came to know that my inditing skill is at an all time low and it needs grooming as I couldn't think of anything to write on his card.

There is no current favorite song of mine. How come?

I watched Alaipayuthe last weekend for the umpteenth time and couldn't stop myself from going gaga.

I don't believe anymore that Bhagavat Gita is meant to be read only during old age.

Though one part of me tells my mom to resign from her job. The other part says it would be great if she could work till retirement. One of my dear wishes is to deliver a speech before a gathering on my moms retiring day.

I am trying to fight laziness head on.

South Indian girls are far better than North Indian girls when it comes to respecting people. Not generalizing. I can't stand people who can treat things as humans.

The other day when I was waiting for a bus, I heard a pujari in a nearby temple say ' Trees are treated as Gods by some as they give fresh air and shelter to a lot of people, in a time when we people think twice to help our fellow being.' I found it to be profound.

If you are not going to tell a person that you felt bad about what he/she said/did, then there is only 1% chance that you don't get hurt by the same person a second time.

I love to read anything about the psyche and how it works these days. Given a time turner, I would love to do my graduation in psychology. Having said that I also have to say formal education is only required for employment.

I like Chak De India more than Lagaan. Not that I like Sharukh to Aamir or Hockey to Cricket.

There are some times when I try to think when I am supposed to feel. And there are many other times when I feel when I actually should be thinking. Did the creator interchange my heart and brain?

Confession ; I don't lift all calls that come to my mobile and reply to all messages unless I think it's necessary. I don't think there is any need in picking up and telling that 'I am busy and will call back later' when you actually don't feel like talking to that person in the first place.

I wish to live a long life.

'You don't own a person in a relationship'. This understood I don't think there will be many break ups/ divorces.

I can do really superb things which you might say insane. Just like what I am doing now. From office to net cafe and doing aimless blogging. Ha:)

Tat Tvam Asi

Some days back read a beautiful post on spirituality and humanity. After reading that I have wanted to pour in my thoughts about the same subject. Many times I draft something, but either due to unstable net connection or writer's block I don't post them. I have always contemplated on the existence of a supreme power. As a child, I was taught that God can solve all my problems. And that all the good and bad things I do, God is watching over me. I was taught on how to join hands and pray. I remember asking Mom at the temple, ' What should I pray ?' And Mom used to tell me 'Ask him for good health, good marks etc'. I guess most of the parents tell their children the same. I used to believe Mom, and when my Maths marks are down and Mom used to scold me for all the careless mistakes I have made. I used to directly go to the pooja room and ask the deities 'Why did you all have to do this to me?':) Days went by, and my meaning of God also changed. To me somehow it's like this, if it's good it is God. As I used to tell my buddies, there is no good in GOD but there is God in GOoD. I never fold my hands before deities, I just keep my right hand on my chest and close my eyes for sometime. And all I say most of the time is 'You are my strength'. Everyone has goodness in them and how much of goodness that much of God too. I am not against any religion or God. I am against the society which has divided people in the name of both. I am against all those people who set off communal riots within the country. Seeing God in statues and in different forms is the problem, why not see God in yourself. According to me, the strength in you is the God and the weakness in you, the evil. Why not worship yourself for the goodness in you? Why not teach our children more about the goodness in doing good things than the goodness in God.? They after all are not going to see someone by name God in their lifetime, rather tell them about good people. Why not be humane than godly? After walking the eighteen steps in Sabarimala temple, what the devotee gets to see is these lines 'Tat Tvam Asi'(Thou art that) meaning ' You are God', the ultimate knowledge. I have understood now that good marks come only by studying and good health by good habits. Unlike my brother I never used to follow Ramayana or Mahabharata. My questions to Mom were , Why Lord Rama had to  prove to his countrymen that Sita is chaste? Why didn't Lord Krishna marry Radha, his childhood lover? I used to be this girly kind and used to hate anyone who makes girls cry , be it God or Man. Even now Mom doesn't have solid answers to these. But my questions now have changed. I ask 'Why are innocent people killed?' , 'Why isn't there equality in the society?' Can your GOD answer them? But I guess WE can. 

You have no rights...

I just want to tell the world out there. ' You can be a bad person as you have all the rights to choose what you have to be in your life span. But that doesn't give you licence to play havoc in someone's life who trusted you. No law might punish you but you can't escape the final judgement. The only godly thing I believe in.'

Faith/ love... Jo Bhi Kaho...

'Aum Bhur Bhuva Swaha, Tat savitur varenyum,

Bhargo devasya dhi mahi, dhiyo yo na prachodayat'

It's the Gayathri mantra, which I had kind of crammed some weeks back. I was having trouble in sleeping and my mom had made me memorize these lines. I didn't fall asleep as soon as I said these sanskrit words whose meaning I was unware of. But the intensity of faith in which she told me had some how become communicable. Yaa, I too kind of got the same faith in these lines. And not soon after that, but yaa after few days I kind of slept really well. Morning, I went and kissed mom thank you. She told me if it had worked why don't you include it in your prayers every day. I told her,I will do. I went and googled about those lines. Yaa I could easily find out the translation of every word. But it wasn't like poetry which when read together made sense. But this much was apparent, it has something to do with mental strength. I went on to think, was it really because of these lines? Do these lines really play some sort of magic. If so people wouldn't go for tranquilizers, sleeping pills. One mantra, peaceful sleep, problem solved. America will no longer be called the prozac nation with all americans saying the Gayathri slogan. I thought of 3 idiots, the Aal Izz Well mania which has spread nation wide. After much cerebration, I suddenly realized my undisturbed slumber for the past few days actually had nothing to do with my recitation. Coz everytime I used to say these lines, my mind never used to translate the words so that I  get a complete feel of it and pray with my heart in it, not to mention I was far from a religious person. But yaa, when telling  these alien words I used to feel my mom's presence. I would remember the faith in which she taught me those lines. It wasn't faith. Was it? Wasn't it actually love? Or must be her faith, and my love. I also had an enlightenment that day, people aren't devoid of sleep, they are actually devoid of love or atleast they think they are. And love and fear can't co-exist. Well once that fear is gone, I can vouch on a lucid sleep.  And yaa my Gayathri devi can be none other than my mom:)

Idhu sogam aanaalum, oru sugam...

It's been long I wrote something in my page. Kind of bored to pen today also. But couldn't stop writing down the lines I am listening to now and which I have been humming for more than a week now. Maalai neram, mazhai thurram kaalam enn jennalin orrum nitkiren from Aayirathil Oruvan. Awe-struck actually. I heard from my friend that Selvaraghavan has himself penned the lyrics. I have heard songs which are full of life. This song is a step above that, should I say full of soul? Down the memory lane there are lots of moments we treasure, and there are equal moments we want to forget. Somebody has told, 'Past doesn't exist, it's just in memories and to think otherwise is to invite a mess'. Yaa it might be true, but director Selva, time and again comes with creations romancing the past. The key factor about Selva's certain songs are that they are just taken from the memory lane and without any adulteration presented. Who can forget Ninaithu ninaithu paarthen or Oru nallil vaazhkai.? It's so much real, it is so much of soul, it is so much of YOU. For all those non-fictional people listening to Maalai neram in Andrea's awesome voice and dropping a tear or two on your pillow covers... It's ok, you can move on... you must be lucky to have felt it:) Un karam korkayil, ninnaivu orr aayiram, Numm irru karam pirrigayil, ninnaivu nooru aayiram. Kadhalil vizhindu idhayam, meezhka mudiyadhadha Kanavil thulaindha nijangal, meendum thirumbadhadha. Oru kaalayil nee illai, thedavum manam varavillai, Pirindhadhum, purindhadhu, naan ennai izhandhen enna... Idhu sogam aanal oru sugam, nenjin ulle parravidum, Naam paazhagiya kaalam paravasam,anbe...Idham tharume... Tamil literature is beautiful, wish I could study to read and write properly. :)

Jaane Tu Mera Kya Hain.?

Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na, this movie's music and lyrics are in so sync with the storyline. I guess the director Abbas itself has written the lyrics too. It's so much in lay man's terms, that any teenager can relate to. And Guru's music, the masti in 'Pappu can't dance' or the solitude in 'Kahin Tho Hogi Woh', I simply run out of words when I try to describe what I feel. The other lovely song in the movie which has two versions to it 'Jaane tu mera kya hain'. When you start loving the person who you thought was just your bestest friend, that's the song. I love the Aditi version. I have always believed a boy and a gal can remain best friends but this song somehow with it's lyrics and it's haunting music proves me wrong. To hate it or love it, I don't know. But this song just gets the better of me.

' Ye dosthi humko yakeen tha,  dosthi aur kuchch bhi nahi tha

  Ye kaisa dardh naya sa, kyon dhil laghtha toota toota sa?

  Janne dhil jaana kaise mai ne na jaana, ke pyaar yahi hai, ye jaane tu ya jaane na'

 

Possessions

Material or personal, we all have possessions. Somethings that we can't give up for anything. Remember as kids that one special toy or that nipple of our feeding bottle that we would untiringly cry for until we get it back. It can be a pricey material possession like a Benz or as invaluable as your self-esteem. 

I was thinking of mine. 

My diary, for no special rhyme or reason. But that is exactly what comes to my mind first.

My best friend's friendship day letter, 12th std. I never knew someone could love me so much till then. 

The earings that Mom gifted me after my 12th standard result. It's a very small 'bunch of grapes' hangings. I am wearing it right from my day one in college and remove it seldom. I like it so much that I wouldn't exchange it for a diamond earing or be it anything:)

My Dad's memories though very few.

A big teddy that a friend gifted on my birthday, final year.

My fast track watch(planning to buy another one) and my Samsonite backpack. I feel like a princess when I wear them. Might be coz they are the only branded items I own. But they have made me feel 'Quality speaks even after the price is forgotten'.

That's quite a few I am able to think of in a matter of minutes. What are yours.? 

The only real nation is humanity.

'Madham ennum Madham oyattum, desam malar meedhu thuyil kolattum' (Let the madness in the name of religion fade, let the nation sleep on flower beds) In this century where almost anything and everything is getting outdated, there are still anachronisms like 'religion', 'caste', 'color', 'creed' that are being preserved big time. It's like 'Time stood still'. Some or the other communal riots keep happening every year taking lives of people and questioning the livelihood of many others. And more importantly making us lose HOPE. Wish a Gandhiji or a Luther King be born again and preach people of what kind of insaneness are death and devastation in the name of religion. If Gandhiji was alive he would have said, we haven't got freedom even now.  It wasn't freedom from British rule alone that he yearned for. It was for the nation to remain unified. But does 'Unity in Diversity' hold good any more or has it ever been that way. Gandhiji had gone on a fast once to stop the then ongoing Hindu-Muslim riot in the country. When a Hindu man angrily asked Mahathma 'Why are you asking us to stop the fight, the Muslim people have killed my child'. To which Gandhiji replies 'I know a way out of hell. Find a child, a child whose mother and father have been killed. A little boy about this high and raise him as your own. Only be sure that he is a Muslim and that you raise him as one'. Creating a new nation for Muslims was not the right choice to make to solve the problem. From then on the enmity has elevated only. And now India is surrounded by hostile neighbors. Peace talks and summits have also stopped to help. WE are the ones to be blamed if any kind of terrorism happens in our nations. Like any other important thing, humanity and oneness must also be advocated. People be taught about the happiness in being together, in reaching out, in creating hopes for despondent souls. But how can it be made possible when we are so narrow minded? One solution that comes to my mind is to get married to someone of the other religion. So as to create a progeny which can overlook the 'religion' factor. And remain united as siblings, as spouses, and hence ultimately united as a nation.(The Bombay film style!). Any kind of outrage kills innocent civilians. One just can't forget what happened in Gujarat, in Bombay or for that matter the ongoing Srilankan Eelam issue. Each life is precious, more valuable than the faith you adhere to. All our holy books have the same things to tell us. It's highly ridiculous when people commit sins in the name of faith. If it has to be that way then there is no point believing in the presence of God as you keep crediting your shares of wrongdoings into God's account. Doesn't your conscience prick you at the end of the day? I remember the woman who took the guilt drive in Nandita Das's Firaaq flick, an emotional take on 2002 Gujarat riots. The thought that she didn't help a Muslim lady who knocked at her door followed by an angry Hindu mob disturbs her every day and night. People who want power, most of them see things only in a vote-bank angle. And the mighty few who want to do good to the society have no large number of followers to make a difference. ‘Be the change you want to see', that is the call of the hour. You can never make a mighty difference but ya you can definitely see to that you don’t spread any more hatred. In a time where the feelings of love are attributed to the play of hormones, remember only universal love and humanity will stay forever. 

My Sahil...

He is my best friend. Only he can put up with my swinging moods. He doesn't complain. The best times are when I concede in him and when I am able to best relate to words like individuality, being independent, self worth. I am so entwined with him that many a times I tend to forget(or rather I like to forget) he's a non-living thing. He's my diary.Few days back, I named him 'Sahil'. Sahil in hindi means the 'shore'. Yaa my sahil, Where waves come bashing... Where the boats rest... And from where life seems nothing but beautiful. Every page in him is a slice of life coz whatever I write in him is highly intuitive. I don't even have to think once when I have to pen in him. I have read, to have someone with whom you can be your true-self is a blessing. My diaries are.

The Pen's Might

Two songs that touched on me recently. 'Vaa Vaa En Devadhaye' from Abhiyum Naanum. My expectations from this movie was really high. Though it was good cinema, in person I thought it could have been far better. This isn't all that happens in a Father and Daughter relationship. What I felt was 'Emotions inside can't be pictured with a camera and how much ever real you try to portray it, it gets fancied'. But definitely Radha Mohan's move to make such movies is commendable. This song 'Vaa Vaa En Devadhaye' reminds me of my Dad. He was akin to the character Prakash Raj depicts. Wordses by 'Vairamuthu'. For a father to whom his daughter is almost everything. A favorite line is the one in the last charanam 'Pen Pillai Thaniyarai Pugandhadhile,Oru Pirivukku Othigayai Paarthu Konden'. The very thought of getting separated from his daughter is a pang for the father. The lines bear upon for a long while even after listening to the song. Sung by 'Madhu Balakrishnan', his voice is very soothing.

Vaa Vaa En Dhevadhaye

Pon Vaai Pesum Thaaraghaye

Pon Vaazhvin Pooraname

Pen Poovey Vaa..

Vaan Midhakkum Kangaluku

Mayiliragaai Mai Idavaa 

Maarbu Udhaikum Kaalgaluku

Mani Kolusu Naan Idavaa

Sella Magal Azhugai Poal,

Oru Sillendra Sangeetham Kaettadhillai 

Pon Magalin Punnagaippol,

Yuga Pookkalukku Punnagaikka Theriyavillai 

En Pillai Ettu Vaiththa Nadayaipola, 

Endha Ilakkana Kavidhaiyum Nadanthathillai 

Muththukkal Therikindra Mazhalaippola, 

Oru Munnoru Mozhigalil Oru Vaarththai Illai 

Thandhaikkum Thaai Amudham Suranthathammaa,

En Thangaththai Maarbodu Anaikkaiyile

Pillai Nilaa, Palli Sella, Aval Kaiyodu 

En Idhayam Thudikka Kanden

Deiva Magal Thoongaiyile,

Sila Deivangal Thoongugindra Azhagai Kanden 

Sittraadai Katti Aval Siritha Podhu, 

Ennai, Pettraval Saayal Endru Paesi Konden

Veli Naattu Aadai Katti Nadantha Podhu, 

Ival Meesai Illaadha Magan Endru Sonnen 

Pen Pillai Thaniyarai Pugandhadhile, 

Oru Pirivukku Othigayai Paarthu Konden

Another song that affected me was 'Pichaipathiram Endhi Vandhen' from 'Naan Kadavul'. I never knew IllayaRaja sir can pen. This song was really haunting for few days. Even now I haven't gathered courage to watch this movie. The inner meaning in lots of lines gets you thinking. The anguish, the cry within, it's a call to the creator. Pichaipathiram in the song refers to the 'body' the beggar carries along. I got to hear such sharp-eyed lyrics after a long time. Sung really well by 'Madhu Balakrishnan'.

Pichai Paathiram Yenthi Vanthen

Aiyane En Aiyane

Yaam Oru, Pichai Paathiram Yenthi Vanthen

Aiyane En Aiyane

Pindam Ennum, Elumbodu Sadhai Narambu

Udhiramum Adangiya Udambu Enum

Pichai Paathiram Yenthi Vanthen

Aiyane En Aiyane

Pindam Ennum, Elumbodu Sadhai Narambu

Udhiramum Adangiya Udambu Enum

Pichai Paathiram Yenthi Vanthen

Aiyane En Aiyane

Ammaiyum Appanum Thanthatha

Illai Aadhiyin Val Vinai Soozhnthatha

Ammaiyum Appanum Thanthatha

Illai Aadhiyin Val Vinai Soozhnthatha

Immaiyai Naan Ariyathatha

Immaiyai Naan Ariyathatha

Siru Bommaiyin Nilayinil Unmaiyai Unarnthida

Pichai Paathiram Yenthi Vanthen

Aiyane En Aiyane

Pichai Paathiram Yenthi Vanthen

Aiyane En Aiyane

Athanai Selvamum Un Idathil

Naan Pichaikku Selvathu Evv Vidathil

Athanai Selvamum Un Idathil

Naan Pichaikku Selvathu Evv Vidathil

Verum Paathiram Ullathu En Idathil

Athan Soothiramo Athu Un Idathil

Oru Muraiya Iru Muraiya

Pala Murai Pala Pirappu Edukka Vaithai

Puthu Vinaya Pazha Vinaya,

Kanam Kanam Dinam Enai Thudikka Vaithai

Porullukku Alainthidum Porullattra Vazhkaiyum Thurathuthe

Un Arul Arul Arul Endru Alaikindra Manam Indru Pithatruthe

Arul Vizhiyal Nokkuvai

Malar Pathathal Thaanguvai

Un Thiru Karam Enai Aravanaithu Unatharul Pera

Pichai Paathiram Yenthi Vanthen

Aiyane En Aiyane

Pindam Ennum, Elumbodu Sadhai Narambu

Udhiramum Adangiya Udambu Enum

Pichai Paathiram Yenthi Vanthen

Aiyane En Aiyane

Hmm...It's Okay.

I have never been able to dislike/hate anyone. Do I have a prob? I don't judge people. I have keyed out there is no use in that. My liking and disliking is always limited to principles. I have this conviction, 'there is good in everyone'. Well I don't go correcting them but still when my friends get chatty about people and say they are so and so. I stay mum. I kind of find myself ill at ease among buddies complaining or gossiping about someones character and nature. Character is something really personal. With just some obscure knowledge on someone, who are we to comment. Before dishing the dirt, why not think about yourself being hashed out. My friends wont understand, they will tell me 'Yaa dear, to your eyes everyone is good'. N they will have tons of examples, 'You said she is not like that, now you get to see for yourself'. Lolzzz. I have kind of got used to this now. Friends mean more to me than proving myself right. My world will fall apart without them. But to dispense with this personal guidepost is just not possible for me 'Speak ill of no man, but speak all the good you know of everybody'.

Cost is too high...

'Jeevitham oru kazhcha vasthu aakaradhu... Sandhosham aayalam, sangadam aayalum adhil oru sogaryadha vennam...' Dialogue from Sathyan Anthikad film Vinodayaatra. Means ' You should not make life an exhibition. Be it happiness or sorrow there should be some privacy'. I was searching youtube for the 'video of Balachander's speech on Aamir 'receiving the 11th Gollapudi Srinivas award for best direction for Taare Zameen Par. My search key words weren't exact, so I landed up watching the media's coverage on cat fights in the film industry. Don't actors need privacy? The obvious answer is celebrity status comes with a cost... How easy to say, why don't people understand they are actors just before camera, and acting is a profession just like any other. At the end of the day they too need love, they too are open to all emotions... There are other ways to raise your TRP... Talk about their works rather than their personal lives... Must be this topic is a trifle and outdated one to blog on but I just tried to wear their shoes for a moment and will tell you it hurts... hurts like hell...

Pgs From My Diary - Dated June 20th ' 08

It's 5 mins past 11. ' Oru aayiram paarvayile, un paarvayai naan ariven...' Hello fm. Past few days I have resumed listening to the radio between 10-1, esp Radio Mirchi; Mokkai Nights & Kadhala Kadhala. I was wondering What is it like to become an RJ esp during night time. Who would listen to you...ppl having night shifts, car/taxi/lorry drivers, the road corner pani puri shops, owls & yaa ppl like me who have slept most of the day time and now the eyelids are tired of resting anymore! Oh ya I remember during the reconstruction of my neighbour's house, the workers after a tired day would switch on the radio. It appeared to me like they forget their physical pain and have a peaceful sleep. Their meaning of music is different. Thanks to radio sets which come at affordable prices. ' Neer kulle muzhiginaalum needhi sagadha, nenju kule vaazhum engal jodi saagadha...' Kalai maatum kandaal kaduvul theriyadha from Dasavatharam. Rangarajan Nambi role, the first half an hour is a must watch. Kamal's acting, cinematography, art direction, song every piece of that first few mins in the movie is damn good.

In Kadhala Kadhala, Dr. Love has taken the topic of self love today...the last 2 days the topics were interesting ,office love, celebrity crushes! Today it's boring. ' Loving yourself' , I recall Suresh Punjabi's session in 3rd year. It was a soft skills training pgm for 2 days in collg to equip us for placement at the end of the year. At the close of the first day training, Suresh sir had asked us to write a Love letter to ourselves! To show how important self love is. Dat was the first and last love letter I have written. It's safe in my desk along with another precious letter given by Akhi on Friendship day 12th std. 'un punnagai naan semikindra selvam adi, nee illai endrral naanum inge ezhai adi...' kannukule unnai veithein. I like the lyrics and the innocence PrabhuDeva displays in the song. I prefer listening to the radio n switching channels to my saved Fav playlists in my comp. Vow! Another fav number from one of the worst movies I have seen ever. The song ' Ven megam pen agaa uruvaanadho...' music is by Yuvan from yaaradi nee mohini...' kanmudi orr orum naan saygirein, kanneril anandham naan kaangirein...' Hariharn is such a consummate singer, so much feel in the song...

Uma has said she would come home tomorrow, we girls are so much bored...the hols seem never-ending with no idea of when the company would call...I turn back few pgs , dated 1/6/08, I had prepared a check list of things I should do this summer...Haha..." I have 100% belief that I would do something tomorrow which I had totally ignored today". Am I stupid or optimistic..? I don't know but this much I am sure I love myself a lot. Eppayadhum urupuduvein..:) This belief keeps me going. I have been picking up some random blogs and reading these days. One was that of a gal who is so good in writing, her inditing style is so unique. But I haven't understood why does she take the nay side of things always. She seems to hate herself. From her old posts I could key out there was some love failure. She finds her blog to be her only solace, so I didn't want to comment anything. Really wish she finds love again in life. Ha, Oh ho sanam...Oh Ho, it's Dasa again. It's the Pop singer Kamal! The pairing between Kamal and Jaypradha was good, it would remind anyone of their Salangai Oli...Naadha Vinodhangal. It's 12.20...I am reminded of a friend who is kinda rough these days. I wish to give her a piece of my mind, but I feel she won't take it in the right sense and face-offs don't interest me. ' uravin perumai pirivil kandu, uyirin paadhi kuraindhein...' Azhage sugama un kobangal sugama. The violin piece is amazing. Divi and me had decided to learn guitar this hols, dunno whn..?

Dr. Love is telling something sensible finally. ' Do things that you love, for eg dressing up well & when ppl pass some good comments, you will feel good about yourself' dats quite true:-) Another beautiful thing to do is to openly tell ppl ' They look good/ beautiful/ handsome today ' you don't know, you might be unknowingly making someones day. Hello fm... 'Nilave ennidaam neringadhe, nee ninaikum edathil naan ilay...'dats a beautiful song. Old songs...day before I had chanced upon a tamil song review site. There was this post on " Polluted songs"...bloggers who are lyrics enthusiasts were ripping apart songs, entries of adulterated songs! The main target of one guy was Kannadasan, he was listing double meaning songs of the legend. Well, he got fitting replys from fellow bloggers. I was taken back when he sort of declared one of my fav songs to have vulgar lyrics. ' Senthazham poovil vanthadaum thendral...' from mullum malarum. The beauty of nature and subtle assumptions of nature as woman. I have loved the song so much. Another blogger commented ' Palam sillar ulam enna yen padaithaan andavan from the same song, must be Kannadasan knew there would be ppl like you who see everything in double meaning'...hehehe...I was so happy! Dr. Love signs off wishing the listeners a great weekend. The song is 'Alankuil, koovum reyil yavum isai agum ada kanna...'...Harini's classical touch. I remember Kirthi, in school days we used to sing together Harin's 'Manam Virumbuthe'... Kirthi knows each line by heart. The time is 1'o clock...Ha, his pic is the screensaver in my mob. My frnds call me crazy, but I don't bother...I still get glued to the chair when I see Vijay on screen nevertheless I have got tired of his humdrum roles in the past many flicks...Hmm...I have really liked this idea of writing my dairy listening to radio! Gudnite.

P.S. Net connection isn't stable in the night hours coz of low voltage otherwise I could have made a direct entry into the blog.

Strangled in thoughts

Huh...doesn't the mind hav any other job than significantly thinking of trivial and chapter-closed matters....I feel only seldom I have used my mind for the right purpose, it keeps wandering like a nomad most of the times....it's like this, you test your memory, lets c how powerful it is....in a minutes time the first thing that would strike is the worst thing that has happened, I seriously wonder why so....why does this brain has to filter the worst and send....??The answer is obvious, it's like a count...yaa exactly the brain keeps a count of the matters and the order in which you conceive them, it's like a stack LIFO(Last In First Out)....the matter that is the last in the order will soon get out of your mind and the ones which you keep imagining or thinking of finding a solution always would be the first in the order....thats why when u sit to think... the unsolved, the unhappy matters come first to your mind....it's not the minds fault, it's yours....you have given some matter so much importance and it has highest priority now....the easy way to escape from the strangle is to keep decrementing the count, yaa just skip the matter that comes first...then the next, thn the nxt....soon you will find the happy ones;they are the bottom dwellers...now don't decrement, stay there keep thinking until it gains priority....surely next time when you sit to think, the happier ones will find more space....the brain which controls the other systems, can also be controlled....let go off this stmt ' I m not able to let go this topic off my mind'.....u surely can!!! N hey if u find this post crap, do the same...let it go off your mind....hehehehe:)

Acad Life Ends

Hmm...with yesterday's final sem paper; High Speed Networks, my Academic life came to an end. Ramya B.E...yipeeee. I am a combined (though not well defined...LOL) product of St.Thomas(till 1st std), Bosco Academy(2nd to 5th), St.Marys(6-12th) n R.M.K Engg(B.E, Compsci). Started learning A,B,C,D... n finally got only 2 alphabets. So bad...if I study 2 more years I will get an M.B.A. School days were the best, there was dedication. I am happy I finished college, there is no space for nostalgia. I feel matured, I no longer miss people or places. I ain't the same gal who left school with fake promises of keeping in touch with friends. My good old buddies say I have never changed, other than for that pimples and acnes...haha...changes are inevitable and I also believe they aren't explicit. It happens within, we change a lot with time. Lots of lessons learnt which weren't either in school or college syllabus. My life is gonna be 'simply great'. I am damn sure about that. Excuses wont have place in the journey. There is lots to be done, this time under my discretion and likes. Dunno, for the first time in life I feel so good about myself. What a relief!!!

In college I was called Ms. Quote( don't read it as misquote:D) Ya any speech, debate I will have one or two quotes to justify what I am saying. I remember once saying something totally irrelevant, only a few of my friends understood, thankfully:) I was going through my diary(whenever I feel low, dats what I do either spend some time with my diaries or listen to my songsophy playlist) You can call it magic, within minutes time I am in high spirits. Dats my way of becoming happy. Do tell me wat you ppl do when you feel exasperated or you are feeling blue?? One of my friend calls me up when she is sad, I blabber something and she becomes alright(weird na??) Happy for you dear, anytime I m just a call away:) These few quotes or thoughts are very dear to me.

*The ability and energy to do something lies in the self-interest of wanting to do it, if we can just put fear and doubt beyond our imagination.

*When a man's fight begins within himself, he is worth something.[Currently experiencing...:)]

*Vision is the ability to see what the end looks like before you start.[Do you have one??]

*I love you because you have done more than any creed would have done to make me good, and more than any fate could have done to make me happy.You have done it just by being yourself. Perhaps that is what being a friend means after all.[To My Best Friend]

*One crowded hour of glorious life is worth an age without a name.

*No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.

*The great many people think they are thinking when they are merely rearranging their prejudices. [My Fav]

*Maturity is the ability to express ones own feelings and convictions balanced with consideration for the thoughts and feelings of others. [ Becoming older doesn't make one matured, not many know this]

*Unless you have courage, a courage that keeps you going, always going, no matter what happens, there is no certainty of success. It is really an endurance race. [Kairegayil ondrum illai, kayil vendum dhil...:)]

I wish...

I wish this day never ends...
Or I wish the rest of my life is filled with such todays.
My path of life have had both roses and thorns,
Sometimes it has been fragrance, and sometimes pain,
But when time made one of my wish come true today,
I agnized my wishlist is no more a dreamlist.
I now don't care the thorns, the pain or the path,
Coz this day has given me the courage to move on.
And now I wish this life never ends...