Tat Tvam Asi

Some days back read a beautiful post on spirituality and humanity. After reading that I have wanted to pour in my thoughts about the same subject. Many times I draft something, but either due to unstable net connection or writer's block I don't post them. I have always contemplated on the existence of a supreme power. As a child, I was taught that God can solve all my problems. And that all the good and bad things I do, God is watching over me. I was taught on how to join hands and pray. I remember asking Mom at the temple, ' What should I pray ?' And Mom used to tell me 'Ask him for good health, good marks etc'. I guess most of the parents tell their children the same. I used to believe Mom, and when my Maths marks are down and Mom used to scold me for all the careless mistakes I have made. I used to directly go to the pooja room and ask the deities 'Why did you all have to do this to me?':) Days went by, and my meaning of God also changed. To me somehow it's like this, if it's good it is God. As I used to tell my buddies, there is no good in GOD but there is God in GOoD. I never fold my hands before deities, I just keep my right hand on my chest and close my eyes for sometime. And all I say most of the time is 'You are my strength'. Everyone has goodness in them and how much of goodness that much of God too. I am not against any religion or God. I am against the society which has divided people in the name of both. I am against all those people who set off communal riots within the country. Seeing God in statues and in different forms is the problem, why not see God in yourself. According to me, the strength in you is the God and the weakness in you, the evil. Why not worship yourself for the goodness in you? Why not teach our children more about the goodness in doing good things than the goodness in God.? They after all are not going to see someone by name God in their lifetime, rather tell them about good people. Why not be humane than godly? After walking the eighteen steps in Sabarimala temple, what the devotee gets to see is these lines 'Tat Tvam Asi'(Thou art that) meaning ' You are God', the ultimate knowledge. I have understood now that good marks come only by studying and good health by good habits. Unlike my brother I never used to follow Ramayana or Mahabharata. My questions to Mom were , Why Lord Rama had to  prove to his countrymen that Sita is chaste? Why didn't Lord Krishna marry Radha, his childhood lover? I used to be this girly kind and used to hate anyone who makes girls cry , be it God or Man. Even now Mom doesn't have solid answers to these. But my questions now have changed. I ask 'Why are innocent people killed?' , 'Why isn't there equality in the society?' Can your GOD answer them? But I guess WE can.